i went to a party last saturday night..."didn't get laid, i got in a fight. uh huh. it ain't no big thing." sorry for the Lita Ford flashback. anyway... i don't know if i should call it a party or a gathering? either way, here's the situation. (my parents went away for a week's vacation and... sorry! can't get songs out of head.)
there are people sitting in this room whom up to this point have never met each other. we are playing a game called Loaded Questions. the jist of this game is that one player asks a questions like "What person do you wish you could meet and why?" the rest of the players respond and turn in there answers to a person who reads them out loud. the player who asked the question has to guess the other team members response. so it's my turn and the question is..."what was your most embarrassing moment?" now i have to guess each persons response. here were the answers:

1) got caught masturbating
2) caught my parents having sex
3) saw my brother-in-law naked
4) naked with pickles in school
etc..

i also got the question "which part of the human body is your favorite?" responses:

1) my penis (not just a penis, but MY penis)
2) boobies
3) labia
etc.

let's go back to question number one... when sitting in a room full of strangers, which person should i accuse of getting caught masturbating, and whose hand am i not going to shake at the end of the night?

question number two made me laugh until i got to number three on the list. that's just... icky.

it was really fun, don't get me wrong. i just have never gotten to know people as quickly as i did that night:)

anyway... after that lovely introduction:) here's some spiritual insight...after talking with numerous girls about how we haven't found fellowship, we collectively decided to start a small group gathering on monday nights. this past monday was our first and it was so refreshing. i've been to some small groups and have come away feeling like it wasn't a good fit, but this one is different. i think we are all searching for the same thing, and none of us are sure what it looks like.

i wrote this in my journal last year and it still fits:

"i feel like i'm walking on a spiritual tight rope; stuck between two safe platforms. one of the platforms being the things i've always known and the other being the side that it yet to come. where is god in all of this? i'm in the middle. i'm afraid of falling. it's hard to see either platform from where i'm standing and i'm feeling numb. i'm afraid of falling, but wondering if relinquishing myself might be the best thing to happen?"

deep thoughts:)

peace

mel

so i'm sitting in the library trying to concentrate on words of wisdom i will ly forth to theeuns and it's virtually impossible. my fingers our are so cold that they have turned that purply pinky like hue, my bladder is insanely full, a strange man from across the way keeps on staring and is severely creeping my out, and the biggest promblem i have is that if i choose to leave i will relinquish my computer and the whole 40 minutes i have to take care of all of my internet needs (which are quite lengthy today). so bare with me if this starts to get weird.

a new category for the blog: "lame-ass questions that people ask me almost every day."

i'm a making "lahtae's" behind the espresso bar and call a drink to a customer. after several minutes a customer will come to the bar and ask, "do you know what drink this is?" eediot.

i really have to go, this is awful! blast! i'll be back.

mel