So, I'm attempting at changing my blog, but i have managed to erase the talk back section and am having a hard time getting it back in... sadness:(

Bizarre happenings... i probably shouldn't confess this, but i have to air it out cuz i don't know what to do with it... for the first time in my life i believe i am getting hit on by a girl.    the song "Every little thing she does it magic" by the police has been completely ruined because of this girl.  She started singing it to me today while at work... icky, icky, icky!!! 
again don't know why i'm sharing it, but i just had to get it out of  my system...

other weird stuff... i had a woman approach me today to do modeling for Mary Kay makeup...i think her soliciting ME had everything to with the totally pink outfit i was wearing.   i will never wear that outfit again.  i might not every wear pink period...

side note:  went into a Christian Book store for the first time in many months.  as i was browsing through the books i started to feel really pissed.  "How to become a great Christian in ten minutes or less."  yuck!! what is this!  when is someone going to get a clue that Christianity is about reading your Bible and letting the Lord speak to you through it.  marketed Christianity is making me ill.

i'm tired and crabby lately... maybe i should get some sleep and try and start this week over... it's just been plain weird.  

one last thing that i have discovered that is an absolute pet peeve of mine... the phrase "whatever"  makes me want to spit.

 
well that's all for now:)...

mel

holy cow, have i been delinquent in my blogging!!! we've been moving into the new pad and things gittn crrazy!  my goodness i had no idea how my move would effect me.  when you've lived in the same place all of your life you start to take things for granted.  for instance going...anywhere!!!  it sucks the life out of me!  i don't know my way around town and every time i go out it's like i've run a marathon.  i get lost and streets don't make sense... especially here.  there is an intersection here that is at the corner of Queen, Queen, and Queen.  what it is that?!!!!  who in there right mind would make three streets with the same name and then have them all intersect!!!  people who are drunk and and don't have a care in the world that's who.   ugh. 

anyway my new adventure has led me to a very queer place... i feel disconnected from everything i've known and haven't discovered what has yet to come.  i have to be honest, some days it feels like i'm floating in an abyss.   people don't know me and they don't care where i've been because it's about me invading their world.   i have to navigate my way through their culture and their experience which is nothing like mine.  it can't be. so i've left people who share that with me, and their lives just go on without me.   and i don't want to go back because i'm trying to move on. it's the past and the future but no present.   it's just weird...

i miss having inside jokes, sharing stories from the past, talking about things that matter because you have that level of trust that enables that.  i have that here with my friends heather and jeff, but i miss it collectively.  time really is the only thing that takes care of that, but time goes by so fast and costs so much.   once it's gone it's gone.   it makes me have a different perspective how i make desicions.  intentional... purposeful... these shall be my guiding principles.

mel

i took two naps yesterday... two!! i have never in my life taken two naps. i have had some long days lately with going out after work and moving into my friends house, but i think what is really going on is this... for the past year i have worked 55 -60 hours a week and i think my body is like "whew hew! i'm getting a break!" i'm only working the normal forty and i think i'm starting to unwind a bit. naps are my friend:)

moving to Charlotte was a wise move for me... i have time to reflect, get some perspective and have a little bit of fun to boot. my friends and i have made a list of things we want to do while i'm here. here's a little taste of the list...

1. visit Wilmington, NC. for those of you who were Dawson's Creek fans you would know that Wilmington is where they shot most of the creek. a special perk...you can camp out on the beach there!

2. Charlston, SC. it's beautiful and historic.

3. Ashville, NC. this is home to the Apalachian Mtns. and also, if you are a "Last of the Mohicans" fan, this is where they shoot most of there scenes (in particular, the waterfall scene)

4. Disney World!! i have never been to Disney and i know that it the biggest tourist place ever but, i still love the whole princess thing. "Beauty and the Beast" gets me everytime.

on a different note... this month i will be attempting to renovate my blog. we'll see how this goes:)

right now, i'm going to attempt to assemble a dresser i just bought from Target. i love putting things together! there's something so rewarding when you see the finished product standing in all it's splendor and glory. well, hopefully it will be standing...

mel

hey everyone...just sitting here listening to the 80's music channel on digital cable. kickin up the Nicks "Talk to Me." it's amazing that i have access to 800 channels, yet on any given day i can flip through all 800 channels and still have the words "there's nothing on" come out of my mouth. i'm pretty happy that i don't feel inspired most of the time to watch it. i am excited, however, about a new show that is to air on bravo... "Things I Hate About You". it's a reality show that focuses on the the idiosyncrasies and annoying habits of the significant other. it should be moderately entertaining.

so i have been astounded by my experience thus far in Charlotte. a list of the things i didn't expect to find here:

- the Japenese fesitival
- lots of sushi
- big time cultural diversity
- art museums
- theaters that show Indie films
- music other than country.
- a skyline

it's been really fun so far... will post more later:)

mel

as much as i have tried to resist it, it is inevitable that i too will become sucked into the vaccuum of... dun,da,dun - the southern drawl. why is it that accents have such a hold on me! i try to fight it, but i just cain't. why, why, why!!! it boils down to this. i have within me the need for acceptance and the need for others to feel accepted, therefore, i immitate what i hear. it's not that a southern drawl is bad, but i have to be honest.. i have stereotyped individuals of the southern drawl as somewhat, well...educationally challenged. i now know that this is entirely unfair and not true (at least here in Charlotte). i guess the other part of the issue is that i don't want to let go of my roots as a Midwestern girl. (note: as i am writing this, the words that are spoken in my head as i type are all coming out in a southern drawl. ughh) i'm pretty sure resistence is futile. the coffee shop i work at now calls out their drinks. it was severely messing me up. i would try to say the drink back and it came out sounding Yiddish. i realize that in order for me to work effectively i will have to cave in...

so ya'll have a nauce day ya hea!